I realize that I’m likely coming back to an audience of zero. In all honesty, I’ve never even been sure that there was any audience for this site to begin with. (Hi, Mom!) And that’s okay. It’s always been more about documenting things than sharing them with other people. I’d be quite happy if there was an audience for this, but I’m equally content with this being just a place to put down thoughts.

It’s a good thing for me to have. I’ve been writing journals for a very long time now. The biggest problem has always been that I’m not very good at it. Consistency is a huge issue. I have a good number of notebooks kicking around that have a half dozen written entries in them before they were abandoned or repurposed. I’ve also got a couple of plain text files that were created with the best of intentions that are left unloved in some directory I’ve forgotten exists on my computer.

I’m back to writing and that’s the largest reason I’m back to this. I’m going to do things a little bit differently now that I’m back to it again. I’m not going to fall back on old habits where I set project goals and schedules and pack my little life to the gills.

That’s pointless and self defeating for me.

I’m going to start blocking out time where I can say that I will work a specific type of material and, if I’m feeling up to it, I will do just that. If I’ve got time set aside for music and I want to practice an instrument or record something I will. If not, I’ll do something else. That’s the plan. Plan for it, but be flexible.

More importantly, as much as as I’ve been going just fine working nearly exclusively on professional life related things I know that won’t hold. If I continue on the schedule I’ve been on, with the dedication level I’ve been giving, I’m going to burn out. I will get bitter. I will get bored. I don’t want that. Knowing that it will come I can combat it in advance and fix it before it sets in.

I don’t have much of a plan as to what is on the immediate horizon. I have a lot of things I want to do. Rather than committing to any specific thing I’m simply going to do and to be. If something comes out the other end that I’m interesting in sharing then I will happily share it. Otherwise, I’m just going to keep working away and see where it leads.

It beats the alternative of doing nothing. For it being nothing I sure have done a lot of it.

david shute - 11.04.12 @ 21:53 - permalink